in my recent past, I had these seven years of my life that seemed to disappear into the ether.

during that time I met and helped to raise a wonderful 4-year-old boy, and his 7-year-old sister.

Last month my step daughter turned 16. I was with them for seven transformative years. I am SO grateful for those years.

I can only hope that I brought them as much love as I received. that is my dearest wish.

It’s been two years since I’ve known how they are doing. This not knowing and simply hoping and sending lovingkindness and heart and health and love is beyond challenging to bear at times, perhaps most so during holidays and birthdays and anniversaries. And then, this changing is the only thing to bear. Do I wish I could change circumstances? So much so.

And yet, like so many challenges and difficulties in life, here it is. My only choice is to hold it and love it, because I refuse to deny it. I lean in, I listen to my heart, I hear the messages and the lessons.

This is what i have.

I hope they have full, happy, healthy, loving lives. I hope their hearts and days are full of amazing experiences. I sincerely hope their lives bring them joy and success and fun. I send them more growth and change in life. I keep sending love. This is the same love and growth I send to each of us on this ever-changing path in life.

I release. I surrender. I allow. namasté.