regret. and forgiveness.

regret. and forgiveness.

forgiveness was one of those words that was supposed to mean a lot. I treated it that way and yet would have to add that it never really hit me square between the eyes, as they say. then, in the way that the universe has, I was receiving back to back to back messages,...
just promise me we’ll be all right

just promise me we’ll be all right

you promised me “we’ll be all right.” and we weren’t. i asked you to “hold me in your heart,” and it seemed you didn’t. i tried to hold on with all of my might. and it wasn’t all right. we both tried… heaven only knows the stories we both told ourselves to make...
unhooking

unhooking

I first landed on the concept of being “hooked” just a couple short years ago by Pema Chodron, a woman I consider to be a true teacher. Married twice, divorced, cheated on, had a family, had a career — I knew she was as “real” as me and I readily accepted her earthy...
… the fragility of life ..

… the fragility of life ..

a short, soft stubble of fresh fur is just beginning to grow back. fur that will cover up the nakedness and vulnerability so easily seen when it was shorn for his surgery. his “soft spot” is showing … “In each of us, there’s a lot of softness, a lot of heart. Touching...
a richly deserved sugar hangover.

a richly deserved sugar hangover.

so, here’s the thing; i am now mildly “suffering” the results of my own deliberate choices. from last thursday until the wee hours of this morning i have shared wonderful times with family who are friends, friends whom I’ve made family. I *was*...
divine storm

divine storm

two years ago today my dad died. two years seems at once interminably long ago, as my life today bears little resemblance to then. it also seems as if everything  happened in the blink of an eye. Almost exactly three months prior to that, my ex relapsed. These two...